Clean Slate

Ok, so I've got school next week. Argh. I'm super excited but this is the final year of school EVER. That is ridiculously scary; I don't feel ready to end. I'd happily just pause my life now and just know that I've never achieved anything but also never failed anything. Hopefully it won't be as scary as it seems.

For my A2's I'm going to take Chemistry, Psychology and Business Studies. I can feel that it will be a good year and that perhaps I'll be more inclined to work harder and be more focussed on my work so I can get into Uni. Presently, I want to go to Bournemouth to do Advertising.

Give you and update soon.

I might do this more regularly and keep it more like a diary? what d'ya think.?

xxxxx

this post is probably because ive watched too many rom coms today

so i started to wonder the other day whether we are really needed in life. is there such things as fate and destiny. and the big question is love real.

personally i cant say ive ever been in love but i dont think that means i cant have a view on it. i think love is just a manmade emotion which is only said to be real because its quite a soft and simple concept to believe. today i ended yet another fling/relationship with yet another boy. and you start to question whether the problem is you. am i expecting too much? do i only like the build up to a relationiship and nothing else? will i ever find someone who actually makes me want to be in the relationship? will i ever feel love?

people often think that love comes with age. but then you see plenty of young couples who have supposedly found their soulmate and that one person you spend the rest of your life with.

Call me maybe?

I don't know how many of you have seen the new video by Carly-Rae Jepson but if you haven't go and watch it and if you have go and watch it again. It is literally amazing. Actually there is two videos which you need to youtube: the first is the official youtube video with Carly prancing around trying to woo the heart off 'the boy next door' character, and the second is with Justin Bieber, Ashley Tisdale and any other Disney star you can think of all dancing around to the catchy song.

The official video is simply brilliant because it's really quite believable. Well I mean that you can imagine doing all the things she does to get the boy's attention. She washes a car, stares at him out the window and sings to him. I can't say I have ever sung to a boy to get his attention but I can imagine doing it. :') The things which aren't quite as believable is that the boy has the best body EVER. Except the tattoos- the kind of ruin it for me but other than that. PHWOAR. Annoyingly I couldn't find the song on iTunes. All I could find were tributes to the song and then the music video, so out of shear desperation I bought the video which was quite an investment at £1.29 but the fact that I can have a very very VERY hot guy mowing the lawn in the palm of my hand somewhat satisfies me.

Decisions decisions decisions.

Oh wow, I'm 17years old and already feel that my life is incredibly predictable and boring. This depresses me so much. I'm currently doing my AS levels and the school are expecting me to know what I want to do with the rest of my life and also organise every single little detail for the next 3 years. Bloody hell! They know how to scare me.. To be honest I have a few ideas but I definitely don't know what I want to choose or whether I would be any good at it. So I have that to think about. UCAS seems to be the worst thing ever invented. SO SCARY. Ah well. Many people have survived so like Gloria Gaynor, I will survive!

Why am I up late on a school night?

Well that is a very good question and perhaps one which I shouldn't really be answering at 1230 on a Tuesday morning. BUT it is because I have really got into my happiness project at school. ahahahahhaha laugh laugh laugh giggle giggle giggle happiness project how lame. Yes well I would have had the exact same reaction before I did go to this wonderful lunchtime event at school. Tbh I have only had one lesson and I am already loving it and it is making me a bit more happy. The task this week was to do a video of things that make you happy which I did which is rather a crap video but I like that it is pretty awful and clumsy because it kind of reflects my personality in it (well that's what I'm going to say anyway;)) and then the other task was to complete a survey to find out your 5 signature strengths of your personality. I'm not joking this was the longest survey evaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaar. I was so annoyed it didn't have 30 questions, 60 questions, 100questions (you're pushing it now), 150questions(this is extreme), 200 questions (you start to question why you are filling this survey out) BUT 240 questions!!!!!! :O It was extensive to say the least.


I'm such a nerd.!

If anyone who I know wants to watch my video then please do ask me for the link :)!

Euphe-ndos????

What's the difference?! I really am so completely, utterly, totally confused. Everyone I know just generalises them to one thing..and here I am just stuck in the middle of two words unsure whether what I say is a euphemism or an innuendo. I haven't been this confused since Joe Mcelderry turned gay well actually I wasn't too consfused about that- I mean everyone knew he was gay. It really wasn't very shocking but I just couldn't think of anything confusing!!!!!!! Oh well, I suppose I could have mentioned the time when I was about 8, when my two male guinea pigs started having mini guinea pigs now that was cofusing (it happens to the best of us). Oh I've even thought of another confused time when Adrian Chiles was chosen to host a morning programme- I swear that he is the furthest from what I would want to see in the morning to waken me up. I mean COME ON; I very much doubt anyone wakes up and thinks you know who could really get my spirits high for this day a little bit of presenting from Adrian Chiles. No, they bloody well don't.

I have really gone over board today with my confusedness so take your pick 1. Joe Mcelderry turning gay 2. Boy guinea pigs making babies or 3. Adrian Chiles in the morning

So if anyone wants to enlighten me about my confusion over innuendos and euphemisms please do!

I always keep my promises.

Wow, I kept my promise and uploaded some photos of moi in a strange collage form which seems to be leaning slightly to the left :S I'm rather unsure why this happen.. Oh well. Now you can see what I look like abit more rather than one photo which only represents how I look at one particular moment in time. Hehe. I hope you like them.

I've only just realised I don't post many pictures compared to other bloggers. This can't be happening.

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Well that was a lie..

I'm afraid my last post was rather misleading considering I didn't actually start using this blog again as regularly as I proposed I was going to. Ooooops. So if you have already read the post before this one, I shall apologise for the beginning being a complete and utter deception. Also, if you are reading this post and plan to read the next one after (and if you weren't you should), if I were you I would just not read the bit saying that the blog is back and most definitely don't sing the little fanfare in your head although I know that it is very tempting. Well just because you are missing out, we can have one here instead... do dodooo dee doooo. Yeah, well that was fun, and most definitely worth it ;) Oh you know you secretly enjoyed it. Good, I know you did.

Starting to use twitter once again although I never think my life is interesting enough for things like blogs and twitter. However the amount of utter shit I have read/watched/laughed at over my internet life I think that anyone will read anything just for the sake of it. I suppose I could put anything on here and at least one person will stumble across it perhaps unwillingly but most probably just out of curiosity and simply have a look at my big face, have a read of a post-a sentence or two if i'm lucky, watch a video and there will be no change in there life at all. Time lost that they will never get back. It's true though. I bet you are wondering why you have read all this so far. I want to thank you for wasting your life reading this. It really means something to me. I feel that I am doing something for the 'big society'. Y'know keeping the vandals off the streets and swerving them off from another riot. I suppose that's a bit too far. Oh well.

Until next time.